Track 5- "Just Like Heaven" The Cure

Insert "Just Like Heaven" now, please. It was not long before I was wearing black eye liner, red lipstick and using egg whites to make the sides of my hair stand up in my best Siouxsie Sioux impression. I was so friggin' cool. However, my year pass really only got about 1/4 use, since I was always on restriction for one thing or another. Things like looking at my mother wrong or not having dinner made on time. Anything you could think of kept me in the house, and once there being able to extend the restriction for the slightest infraction. Oh fun to be young. Before you call the wahbulance, I will move on. The gang at Cloud 9 understood my frustrations, as most of them were from similar households. That year I transformed completley as I tried to figure out the twisted, hypocritical world in which I lived. One thing I didn't understand was why everyone wanted to be my friend. By this time, the silver mine in my mouth had been removed and I thought I was a prettty hot commodity in my death white makeup *sarcasm*. But alas, I was a retard in the love department. I was not girly ever in my young life, and I did not play the usual girly games. Because of this, I tended to have a lot of guy friends. Friends. Only friends. "I do like you, but as a friend" friends. I couldn't understand it, but I didn't let it get me down. When I was out of jail I just wanted to have fun before the paddy wagon came for me. I figured it was a big hassle anyway, with having to know what to do with your tongue and all. I just dreamed about musicians and I had a thing for bass players. I LOVED Simon Gallup from The Cure. I had every picture of him I could find. I wrote "I Love Simon" on the inside of my O-ring belt. Stupid shit like that which girls with no boyfriends do. One Saturday night, I was hanging with Eva when "Just Like Heaven" came on. "I love this song!" we cried in unison. I was quick to the draw- "Jinx. You can't talk until I say you can." I always got her. I usually made her follow me around like my little bitch until I lifted the jinx and set her free. I know right now you are thinking that no one is that stupid, but yes I was and I am not afraid to admit it. So, tonight she disobeyed me because she stopped and said "No, HE is just like heaven!" And there he was, coming through the door. It was Simon Gallup. Ok, it wasn't but the peppermint schnapps we snuck in sure did make him look like him. He walked up to us. He gave Spade a hug. Spade was called Spade because he wore his hair in a mohawk and left a patch of hair on one side in the shape of a spade. Oh, and he was a squatter so that made him uber cool. He lived behind the Orange Mall in an abandoned house with some other people. Now back to our story. Simon smiled at me and then walked away. "Who was that?" we said at the same time, but this was no time for Jinxes. "That's Matt. He hasn't been around for a while." He said a little too carelessly.
"WELL????????????????????????????????????????"
"Well what?"
"Does he have a girlfriend? What's his deal? Is he straight? How old is he? Where is he from????"
Can you believe that all he said was, "Ask him yourself, you're giving me a headache" and walked away, his creepers leaving a black skid marks on the white checks. It must have been the old hooch, because I did. I walked up to him and took off my belt. I turned it over and slurred something along the lines of "See, I love you. I wrote your name on the inside of my belt and here you are and here I am so is this fate or do you have a girlfriend?" I am quite sure it was not that eloquent. After it came out I couldn't believe I said it, but I kid you not he showed me his arm where he had written Siouxie on it. Just two dorks finding love in a sea of mallrats. After the name exchange and other formalities we went to the graveyard...I have never been so excited and scared in all my life. I could swear that he could tell I was a nothing with no experience (one kiss, which is a whole other story for later!), but he leaned in anyway. I leaned in as well, but right into his lap as I threw up a half pint of peppermint schnapps onto his black bondage pants. And here you thought I was going to describe this sentimental memory of our first kiss. Not gonna happen, you are talking to me after all. Nothing in my life can go that smooth, or I would have nothing to say. It was green in color and I couldn't stop staring at it and saying "I am soo sorry". I just wanted the world to stop spinning long enough for me to get off. This was not the ride I bought a ticket for. He kept saying it was alright, but I was off like a prom dress. I can't say that I have never been so embarrased in my life, but it does sit somwhere in the top 3. Eva found me in the bathroom, my favorite place to hide. I only thought she was telling me he was outside waiting for me so everyone could laugh at me, since I figured everyone had to know by now. She finally got me out by swearing on her record collection and there he was. He gave me a hug, his number and a tic-tac. You gotta give it up for his sense of humor, which failed miserably with me at that point but is really funny in hind sight. Needless to say, he became my first boyfriend. He live in Westminster, so we only saw each other at Knott's. All good things come to an end though, dear readers. One night we were running around the park, up to no good, mad because the local skinhead gang F-Troop had shown up. Near the old graveyard there was a fake carriage that is supposed to look like it is being pulled by invisible horses. Gay. Matt and I were sitting in the front and we all thought it would be funny to take it for a ride. We jumped off when it started to roll. Security did not think it was funny and we were asked to leave, never to return. It was ok, it was fun while it lasted. Matt and I lasted about 2 seconds after that since I wouldn't let him get to 2nd ;). Other songs that remind me of that time; "In the Flat Field" Bauhaus, "This Corrosion" Sisters of Mercy, "Wasteland" The Mission UK, "Cities In Dust" Siouxsie and the Banshees, "Night Like This" The Cure.